Faith

Faith is the realization of what is hoped for and evidence of things unseen.

Hebrews 11:1

The theme of faith has been following me this week! First I had that great encounter through confession, then last night I went to a talk my spiritual director was giving in preparation for the Total Consecration to Jesus through Mary. The topic last night was Adoration and I was, yet again, thrown into the mystery of Faith.

Since these talks were given in preparation for the consecration, speaking of Mary's Faith was a fundamental part of the talk. Because Mary was chosen by God to be the mother of His Son, she possessed all virtue perfectly. I often think that this means that Mary didn't have a care in the world, that because she possessed all virtue and grace, that she was above those little trials and sufferings I find so painful in daily life.

Yet, in Luke 1, Mary was troubled by what the Angel said to her. Father spoke of the poverty of God's plan. Mary had complete faith that God's will would be done in her life even though she did not understand "how can this be as I do not know man." (Luke 1:34)

"How can this be as I do not know man." This difinitive statement made by Our Lady reveals the secret of her heart kept in a covenant made in her body. A vow of virginity. Aquinas writes of this verse as her revelation of that vow. In all the other covenants God makes with man of conceiving to bear a son the promised child is conceived through the bond of the flesh. However, Christ is conceived through "The holy Spirit will come upon you, and the power of the Most High will overshadow you." (Luke 1:34) [I could probably do a whole post just on Mary's virginity, but will maybe save that for later.]

Mary trusted, even though she had made a vow to God through her body, that what He declared to her through the Angel Gabriel would come to be. The blind faith of Our Lady, without the understanding as the world sees it, but with eyes that trust in the Word of a loving God. Even more paradoxical than the birth of Christ is His death on the Cross.

Christ came to die, "and a sword shall pierce your heart." (Luke 2:35) She trusted through the 30 years of Christ's hidden life that His timing was perfect. She lived her life with the knowledge that her Son was the Son of God and that He chose to remain silent for those years. Then a mere three years after beginning his ministry, to be put to death on a cross, deserted by His friends save for John.

She was the mother of a dead Son and her Son gave her another. "Woman, behold, your son." (John 19: 26) The poverty of Mary's faith in God's plan allowed her to accept the gift of John and subsequently to be mother to us all. To trust entirely in God's plan is to live life without fear. To walk steadily forward trusting that even though you do not know the way, that God's light will lead you to truth.

There is a rediscovery of faith in the eyes of God. The realization that looking with eyes of this world will not get you closer to knowing His plan for your life. Looking at our Lady's faith, we can rediscover how we ought to pray. To offer our very selves as the sacrifice burnt before the Throne of God and to choose to love even when we do not have all the answers as to why trials and sacrifices have come. To embrace these trials as a standard of vicotory, holding to the cross as the cry of hope.

Checking In

I recently went to confession. The strength of this beautiful sacrament always fills me with awe.

One of my many goals is to discover how to live each stage of my life well. To be fully alive throughout my whole life. It's a hard mountain to climb and my second winds come from Confession. It's not always easy to continue to climb when I don't know how much further until I reach a peak.

This week the priest spoke with me about trusting God. He touched on the very thought that it's hard to always trust God when it's uncertain what the plan is. The wisdom he gave me was that God's plan is never static, it's constantly moving forward, and if you're living life fully alive you are always in God's plan. He advised that I take some time in prayer to check in to see where God is moving in my life.

God is moving in the silence. In this non-fulfillment of my vocational desires he is moving.

We are always called to hunger and thirst for truth, for fullness, for life itself! This paradox of not being satisfied with where I'm at and yet resting in the knowledge that His grace is sufficient is filling me right now. The audacity of hope is not something that's easy to define.

The challenge is to be fully alive and fully myself in all things. Never to hide behind fear or complacency, but dive fully into life. This trust that I so yearn for must be propelled by my firm resolve and desire for the fullness of life. If I am always striving to be more myself, I shall always be walking in God's plan for my life. The time will come and His timing will be better than my idea of perfection. For even when I do discover the fullness of my vocation the next journey will begin to discover how to live well that call.

Hope: It's a lifestyle choice.

Movie Reviews: The Adjustment Bureau

The Adjustment Bureau: 
One scene is inappropriate, otherwise a well done movie.

Starring: Matt Damon, Emily Blunt

Premise: (Slight spoiler alert) Matt Damon plays a rising NY Senatorial Candidate, who bumps into the 'woman of his dreams' one day only to find out the next that she is not part of the "Adjutment Bureau's" plan for him. In stumbling onto the existence of the Adjustment Bureau, he discovers that they are men who can travel through subspace using doors (dressed in bowler caps) and they adjust decisions and situations to fit 'The Plan.' All under the direction of "The Chairman." Matt Damon fights the idea that 'free will' is an illusion to win the girl and a life of his own making, in the end entering through the doors of the Adjustment Bureau, risking having his memory obliterated to spend what time he had left with 'the one,' showing that he chooses her.

Philosophical questions posed: Choice, Free Will, fulfillment through friendship, desire

Cinematic Notes:
Hats: The Adjustment Bureau wears hats. This is an illusion to the "Man in the Bowler" painting.
Significance: The man in the bowler has no face, thus signifying "The Man," so in film when this imagery is used, usually in stark oposition to a character they're illustrating modern man's struggle against "The Man." It's also significant to Power Struggles, or in this movie, the battle for autonomy and free will. At the end of the film when the main character takes the hat for himself, he's taking his life into his own hands, takign it from "The Man."

Lighting: Many of these scenes feature rows of lights, either above the head in a large warehouse setting, or on desks stretching across above heads that are sitting at tables. etc.
Significance: This signifies two things: Man under Scrutiny and it adds to the imagery of Man in a cage. This is a mind bender, so cage mantra comes back in many different forms on all the characters, both in and out of the adjustment bureau.

The Cage Motif: Found subtly behind the characters through pillars, wall design, room design etc.
Significance: It points toward each of the characters being placed in a box and operating per the boxes perameters. Only at the end do you have wide open spaces when choice has been put into act and Matt Damon stands up for his Friend.

Chess Boards: The flooring of many of the shots with the A.B. contains a checker pattern.
Significance: This is pointing toward a chess match between the protaganist and antagonist. Who is behind each side? "The Chairman" vs. Matt Damon.

Water: In the movie water stunts the ability of the A.B.
Significance: In film, water is significant of change, especially rain because rain washes away existing into change. So at the climax of the film it's pouring rain.

Staircases: In this film they pit the staircase against the door 
Significance: In film, stairs signify rising to an occasion and taking ones fate into their own hands. Hence so many chase scenes on spiral staircases. The spiral staircase is also significant of a search for truth, around each bend. Dizzying to the center, usually the summit.

Doors: To stay on one side or go to the other, especially highilghted by the fact that one side of the door is another place entirely. Idea of movement and again, choice.
 
Review: I found this film to be intellectually stimulating. The vivid cinematic motifs used to portray a quest for the answer to the questions of free will and choice made for a dynamic game of cat and mouse through this quest for power. There was some dissatisfaction, for me, in the end resolving of the question, but the movement of man fighting for choice was stunning. The key is that it poses philosophical questions that one can then think about once the movie ends. A triumphant leap from choice into action, instills in the viewer a need to do the same in ones own life. There is a light treatment on the fulfilment of self through friendship. For a person who is so 'other' than you that they inspire you into life versus a static relationship that is comfortable. A well done film with one inappropriate scene I would suggest skipping if you watch it at home.